Completely...

I have been in a funk tonight. I don't know if anyone is like me but...I tend to be a very strong person. So much so that I get to this point of breaking because I am not strong enough to do it all on my own. Yes, I cry out to God but that is it. Our pastor preached this Sunday on going through hard times...it was ironic how the first point he had was do not go through your storm alone. I know the Lord is speaking to me. That is part of the reason I started this blog. To open up and reach out. Tonight I'm not feeling strong. Tonight I am a messy puddle. Thank you JESUS for picking up my broken pieces time and time again. He is faithful and He wipes away the tears. The Lord is convicting me of things in my character that are flawed. The fact that I don't reach out to others in my time of need and my flight like tendencies. When things get hard I buckle down with the Lord, tie up my shoes and run. (Literally and figuratively) Lately I have been running from the things that make that crack in my heart hurt. The below song/video clip/lyrics are from the Movie Facing the Giants and the song is Completely by Ana Laura. It is such a great reminder to myself. (The parts in bold are my doing and the parts that really speak to me/serve as a great reminder) It really is the song of my heart lately and really encapsulates what I have been talking about on my blog lately. The video is just amazing and really speaks of Gods rewards when we are faithful! Enjoy. It brings me joy and lifts me up. I know that when I FULLY surrender to God and HIS will that HIS plan and HIS rewards will be soo much more amazing than I can even fathom. I love you Lord. Thank you for using my brokenness to make me stronger and pull me closer to you. 

Love always, 

Stephanie Rachelle 

The secret of life is letting go 
The secret of love is letting it show 
In all that I do 
In all that I say 
Right here in this moment 

The power of prayer is in a humble cry 
The power of change is in giving my life 
And laying it down 
Down at your feet 
Right here in this moment 

chorus: 
Take my heart 
Take my soul 
I surrender everything to your control 
And let all that is within me lift up to you and say 
I am yours and yours alone 
Completely 

This journey of life is a search for truth 
This journey of faith is following you 
Every step of the way 
Through the joy and the pain 
Right here in this moment 

Right here, right now, and for the rest of my life 
Hear me say 

I am yours and yours alone 
Completely