Baby Showers, PCOS, and Fog...

Yes, I know it's been a while. Life is always busy for us and just the moment when I think it will slow down and I can get back into a routine...plans change. Which is certainly okay. I thought when I went back to work after having a Christmas break that since I had my schedule all set for work already that everything would go smoothly. Well...not so much. Two weeks ago I went back to the Chiropractor for the first time in a long time and found out the reason of all my back pain...it's called: Facet Trophism. A fancy word for my L4 and L5 vertebrae are a little messed up. Genetically, something I was born with and never knew until now. 23 years later. Oh well...with about 25 therepy session with the cracker backer things will improve. I have already felt better (when I stick to doing the exercises, icing it and following all the rules of no-sweeping, vacuuming, shoveling or lifting over 15lbs.) So with time that is getting better but has forced me to take some unplanned time off work to take care of things and go to the appointments. So that is update on life number one.

This past weekend my sister in law and her mom and sister were in town. She is due the end of next month to have sweet Lydia. (My first official niece) So we had two baby showers for her (one with family, then one with the church people and friends) It was a nice event and I think she pretty much got all of the necessities. That baby sure has a lot of clothes already that's for sure! And praise the Lord my mom and aunts did most of the planning. I was not in the mood to do it and I don't have a lot of time.

Which brings me to the next big thing of life happening in the Sonshine household. About a year ago I heard of a disease, syndrome...whatever you want to call it P.C.O.S (Poly-cyctic overian syndrome). I was pretty sure that was exactly what I had and what was wrong with my body so at that point started keeping a strict diary of everything going on. (I didn't have insurance at all until this past december) So I finally got into the doctor this past week and everything I thought was confirmed. I do indeed have PCOS (look it up on web md) and that's why my body is crazy and out of whack. So I started new meds today and a strict diet and a COMPLETE lifestyle change.

Even though I suspected that I have had this for over a year having the doctor confirm it and tell me the stinky facts about it have really hit me hard. I think having the doctor tell me that our chances of having kiddos is only about 17% was the hardest part. Yesterday was a rough day. I cried a lot and then went to small group. Can I just say our church small group is the most amazing thing ever!? They are some of the most supportive and caring and loving people ever. I was able to vent to them and cry to them and share my  heart with them and they listened and didn't judge me and just let me go through my season of being bitter. I know that this is in God's hands and I know that God is bigger than 17% but I just needed a moment of being grouchy ya know?! So after talking with all of them and talking with our good friend Jeff last night I think God has gotten His point through to me...

I have always felt called to youth ministry. Ever since I was very young. But at the same time being a woman I also don't feel like it's my job to be a youth leader. (Just my personal feelings) So it's always been at the back of my mind and pushing on my soul. I always keep putting it on the back burner and telling God that now is not the time and I don't have time. Working two jobs doesn't leave much and I have noticed that I have become a work-a-holic. Last night God broke my heart and finally grabbed a hold of my heart and I listened. I think I know what he is calling...

For now I am going through a HUGE season of change. I HAVE to change my diet and get everything jump started with my body and get going down the right path with the new meds. Second, I need to take a break from facebook and get refocused on my life and on my Savior. The next two weeks are going to be full of prayer and lot's of listening for Ryan and I. We think we know what HIS will is....so we're praying and getting on the right track. I will continue to blog and I look forward to sharing what happens in the next two weeks!

This is getting super long today! AND it's been SUPER foggy outside for the past five or so days. I'm not talking a little fog in the morning I'm talking about full on alllllll day can't see further than 1/4 of a mile fog. It's crazy!

Have a blessed week friends! I am off to work for a few hours then to dinner with the hubster! (I love that boy soooo much! )

In HIS precious name,

Stephanie Rachelle